Sunday, March 28, 2010

Misty, Water Colored Memories...


The days are going by so quickly and my little boy is growing up before my eyes. I am trying to capture every moment I have to sing to him, sit with him, rock him, play with him or just plain be with him. There are so many precious, picture perfect memories of him already that I carry with me throughout my day. The feel of his soft skin against mine as I take him out of the bathtub and wrap him in a big, soft, fuzzy towel. The mischievous twinkle in his eyes as he smiles up at me in the morning. The way he arches his back and turns to look up at me with his soulful, trusting eyes when I am rocking him. At his 4 month checkup a couple weeks ago, they announced that my boy is now 15 lbs and 23 inches long. This just drove home to me how fast he is growing and that soon, he will be a rough and tumble toddler and then a little boy and soon a man. I am amazed every day at the life that we have created and at how insanely lucky I am to be a part of witnessing and directing that life. I am also amazed at my capacity to love and how much better of a person being a mother has made me. My heart has been stretched to new limits and no matter how tired or frustrated or plain worn out I am, when I hold my child or I see his beautiful smile, I can't help but feel myself begin to smile and my heart begin to melt.

Our boy is beginning to play with his toys (and by "playing" I mean grabbing them and stuffing them into his mouth). He is beginning to roll over, laugh, stick his fingers, bib, blanket, in his mouth, "talk" to us by emitting long, low pitched groans, hiccups and coughs. He smiles all the time, loves to play and is the center of his mommy and daddy's universe. We are starting him on Rice cereal this week and soon he will be eating solids. He is beginning to be able to sit up on his own and he holds his head up perfectly. Last week we went to JC Penney and had portraits done of Giovanni and his stepbrother Anthony who was here visiting for a week. It did this mommy's heart good to see my "boys" playing, laughing and loving each other. Giovanni LOVED his half brother (Anthony lives in Southern California and had not yet met Giovanni) and was smiling anytime he was near, Anthony was gentle and loving with the baby and was a HUGE help to me during his visit.

Coming up in April Giovanni and I will be going on his first plane ride to California to visit his Great grandma, great grandpa, cousins, aunties, uncles and Grandma Cynthie. We are creating memories that I will remember forever and I am so grateful for this time. While I do wish once in a while that I could slow time and keep him small and snuggly for a bit longer, I am glad that I am taking the time to enjoy all that is happening and I am breathlessly awaiting the next milestone discovery or achievement in his life.

With wonder and awe I watch my little one grow! Nothing can compare to being Giovanni's Mommy! :)

-New Mommy in Town